Day 13 – Monday – You think you know, but you have no idea

You think you know what it’s like to be out here. But in fact, you have no idea.

I came out here with an open mind and not knowing what to expect. It now turns out I had preconceptions and judgements of my own. I had no idea. You have no idea what it’s like to have someone screaming at you in Thai and trying to keep up. You can’t imagine what it’s like to get up at 5am to start your day to train, and know that there will be 4-5 trainings that day. You don’t know what it feels like to have 7 blisters, some in or on each other and to have to keep going. You have no clue why someone would suddenly throw up when a trainer pushes too hard, or faint in the middle of a high kick. You can’t possibly envisage the sweat that pours off you at high noon training at 35 degree heat in the middle of the Thai summer. I can’t tell you what it’s like to have to do 200 push-ups after a 2,5 hour group training. Couldn’t possibly explain to you either how I can start crying in the middle of throwing punches because I’m tired and frustrated and want to give up. You haven’t the slightest clue what it’s like to finish a workout, only to ring out your shirt and towel from the sweat and move on to the next training.

No. You have no idea, and neither did I before I came here. Now I know and I live it every day. I wouldn’t change places with anyone, or exchange a single day here in paradise. I love the experience more than anything up until these 30 short years. This is my reality now, and for the next three weeks. I am blessed to do what I do and cherish every sweaty, sore, tired, bruised moment. Think about what gives you self-fulfilment.

Find what makes you happy and pursuit it. It’s simple advice but effective. Have a good night my lovelies!

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